História Happy Maybe After - Prologue

I took a deep gasping breath and opened my eyes wide. I stayed this way for a minute. Breathing heavily and trying desperately to understand what was going on. 

Then it hit me. I had killed myself. "I'm I dead?"  I wonder out loud. My vision is hazy so I don't know where I am. I flex my fingers and wiggle my toes. I don't feel dead. Then again I've never been dead before so how would I know what it feels like. 

I make to stand up and almost pass out in the process. I'm too weak. 'Do ghosts get weak?' I wonder to myself. Could be... since the float around slowly. I try to float but it doesn't work and I give up after a while.

I force myself to stand and my vision goes black. I hold on to something that feels odly like a bed. After a while my vision clears and I'm stopified to fInd that I'm in my room. I look around and sure enough I'm in my room. Even the bottle of sleeping pills and the suicide note are here.

' I'm I really dead?' I question myself. I walk towards the mirror and almost die again ( that's if I'm dead). The girl in the reflection is not me. I stare at her and realize she is me just a very different version of me. She is the me I have always wanted to be. 

"I'm alive but a totally different person. I'm alive and I'm the me I've always wanted to be," I  say to myself. Stuned beyond belief .