Escrita por: DDDenYel
My dad said i was cocky, stubborn and an asshole. My mom said my grandma and dad call her frequently to complain about me and my personality.
It had been a few years since I last felt this not me. Since I last felt like the person I am shouldn't exist, like I should be someone else.
It also had been a few years since I last felt confidence in myself like I was feeling the day before yesterday.
And now it is all gone.
I don't know who I am now.
I don't even know if it is me writing this or someone else.
I tried talking to the girl I love, she said I really needed to change a couple of things.
She might've been right, but I didn't want to hear that at that moment.
I didn't want to be called an asshole for saying I don't like how her "friend" treats everyone like shit.
I didn't want to be an asshole because I said I wouldn't stand for it anymore, I'd tell him to fuck off.
I wanted help.
I want help.
I don't know why people never consider me as I consider them, I'm always someone important, someone they like, but I've never been the most important, I've never been THE one they like, I'm always average, someone among others.
Maybe my dad was right, maybe I am an asshole, maybe I am cocky and stubborn.
I am terribly sorry for being like this, if it is of any comfort, I am not me now.